lampyrine

Long time, no post

In Uncategorized on October 12, 2009 at 10:27 pm

So, I’ve reached a dating equilibrium where it’s not hellish any more.  I’m seeing a few interesting, fun guys, and they are digging my chili — which makes all the difference, it turns out.

And yet.  Last week, fresh off a slow dance with several glasses of red wine, I IMd you, and you responded immediately.  We wrote back and forth for over an hour.  Down and dirty, super flirty — it was fucking awesome.  It was so great to connect with you, to talk about the stupendous sex we had in the past, and to hint around about the sex we might have in the future.

I’m sure it set me back quite a ways in my “getting over Lee” program; I spent the next day stumbling around in a haze of lust.

I’m not entirely blinded by my body’s urges.  I know you don’t appreciate me like you should.  You’ve never been smitten with me, or upset by me, or missed me, the way you have with her.  I don’t know why I can’t spark those emotions in you.

That’s why I’m forcing myself to date.  There are men out there who will become emotionally engaged with me.  That’s my logic speaking.  I just hope it can convince my heart and my loins to get on board.

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